.:Alhamdulillah:.

my sadness turns to happiness..
mslh stu 2 dh selesai..
tggl lg la 2 3 mslh lg..

mlm ni nk blik kg..
x sbr rse..
at least mse duk kt kg, aq x prlu lalui mslh yg stu lg..


x sbr rse nk jerit :
mak, ayh, adik..
along blik dh ni!!
miss them much..

happy, aishiteru mirae..

.:sad:.

p/s : i wanna run away from this sadness..

.:kenape??:.

knp hrus aq dtuduh bt ape yg sbnrnye aq x bt..
x prnah pn trlintas dpkran aq utk bt bnde 2..
apatah lg nk bt btul2..

knp aq hrus dhukum krne kslhn yg aq x prnh bt..
smua ni x adil!!
aq trseksa krne ssua2 yg bkn slh ku!!
arghhh!!

Ya Allah..
beriknlah aq kkuatan..
pulihkn keadaan ini..
bke lh pin2 hti dia utk lhat ape yg sbnrnye..
bke lh matenye utk melihat kbenaran..

depressed, aishiteru mirae..

.:the hypocrite:.

u sucks!!

you're hypocrite!!
when u don't, u said u do..
such an idiot..
even u r excellent in ur study..
do u think other people can read ur mind??
do u think others r physic??
if u think so..
u r stupid..
u're being so hypocrite..
then u accused others hurt u!!
one more thing!!
i'm not here 2 grab ur respect..
i don't even care what do u think abt me..
after i know the real u..
the hypocrite..

aishiteru mirae..

.:tired:.

sy sgt penat..

slps spetang mnjelajah ECM brsme ridz n joe..

sy nk rehat..


kpale sy skit..
blakang sy pn skit..


klu ad ayh kn best..
bleh ayh tlg picitkn..
miss u ayh..

tired, aishiteru mirae..

.:blind:.

aq buta dlm celik..
buta dlm mnilai baik buruk org..

stupid!!

ok.. ok..
drpd aq duk menyesal trslh judge..
bek aq tido..
ngantuk..


gudnite fwens..
sweet dreams..

sad, aishiteru mirae..

.:my father began as a god:.

My father began as a god
full of heroic tales
of days when he was young.
His laws were as immutable
As if brought down from Sinai,
Which indeed he thought they were.

He fearlessly lifted me to heaven
By a mere swlng to his shoulder.
And made me as a godling
By seating me astride
Our milk-cow's back, and too.
Upon the great white gobbler
Of which others went in constant fear.

Strange then how he shrank and shrank
Until by time of adolescence
He had become a foolish small old man
With silly and outmoded views
Of life and of morality

Strange still
That as I became older
His faults and his tolerances
Scaled away into the past.
Revealing virtues
Such as honesty, generosity, integrity.

Strangest of all
How the deeper he recedes into the grave
The more I see myself
As just one more of all the little men
Who creep through life
Not knee-high to his long-dead god.

by : Ian Mudie


p/s : to my father, I really love you eventhough I always rebel.

love, aishiteru mirae..

.:feeling hurt:.

how could u do this to me?
tell me!
wat was i doing wrong to you?
seems u r trying to avoid me lately..

when i asked you to hang out..
u r pretending dat u hv no money..
n u hv no time..


tell me honey..

sad, aishiteru mirae..